Wednesday, November 6, 2013

The Clique Expands

And it expands without me.

I really want to be happy for my friends.
And I am.
I really am.
I want to celebrate with them and ask them questions.
These are good people who will be good parents.

But I cannot help to feel left out.

They talk about strollers.
Travel systems.
Maternity leave.

And I sit.
I have to turn my face.
So you don't see my sadness.

Then my body feels heavy.
My laugh is forced.
My mind is focused on something else.
And after I leave you, I will cry.

My disappointment is with me.
My body.
My failure.

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